Whassup everyone.
Ok, so i have been toying back and forth about this idea of mine. Yeah, you are reading an edited post. I'm sorry, its that at night... i have been thinking alot. I wanted an outlet to express my thoughts. My blog have been too focused into my favorite niche. I feel that i have lost a touch of me. Well. Please don't consider this as a bullshit post after this sentence onward....
I am tired. Yes, its every goddamn excuse i could think of (of) my life. I procrastinate too much and lie around doing nothing. It hurts my head and makes me feel nauseated. I hate 80% of the people i met at my workplace, they(not my colleagues) complain too much and its probably not wise for me to put this on public as this blog already is and my countrymen loves picking up people who complain too much and sham them on our national papers.
It makes me insane that i had to get myself a kids meal at McDonald's, a 4pc nugget, fries and coke with a Plum Scented Polly Pocket toy on my tray. Alone. To remind me how to have fun. I even manage to finish reading,"The Time of My Life" book by Cecelia Ahern, given by my friend as a gift. When was that gift dated...4 months ago. SHIT, that did not just happen. I finally made time to read them all in 4 days but it took 4 months for me to flip. Not an ebook but a proper physical one. It makes me want to meet Life. I wonder if my Life is so sloppy too.
What else? Oh i am starting to think that the importance of wearing socks is extremely high because i have smelly feet. Yeah, i am too lazy to wear one to work. So when i got to it, i know last why i didn't wear them, the pink ankle socks one has a hole. So by the end of the day, it has 3 holes and filled with grime. Unfortunately, me and socks are not very good friends. I love them, the ones with colors, thing is....they are all mismatched. Its improper. I give up on them but just yesterday, i went out to the shoe racks and rummage through to find......a pair of match black socks. Wash it, yeah probably been months long hidden in there. No wonder my sneakers were stolen. Must be Karma. Karma, i hate you, give me my shoe back.
One thing that bugs me is that, i finally meet people that have not met me for a long time. I mean why does it bugs me? Because they have been forcing me to go out and connect with them. I know, what is wrong with me, so down in the dumps, after all they are my friends. I even just went to a kind of housewarming today, so weird. It was a quick one though. I have been avoiding my best-friends because i don't think i have anything nice to say to them. I mean, the last time i had a disapproving look with them was when someone decide to came to a disagreement of our outing and back off. Then one of my girlfriend's guy said a remark that might hurt my feelings more than seeing Disney land being burnt by a bunch of jokers. I am not childish and nobody cares about Disney so over the top except 8 year old. Disapproved much.
I had another panic attack worst than when i had to go to emergency last month. No one likes to see a woman crying in the bus alone, do you? Fuck......i do not understand in what circumstances that i could not breathe on a hot day with crowded people in the bus and all i could think is death or this bus is going to plunge down the highway? Also, i decided to get one of my woman's issue out to the doctor and finally had a pelvic ultrasound done few days ago.
My experience with the u/s sucks. The radiologist said i was not high tide enough and gave me another cup of water to drink. It hurts my bladder so much and she kept pressing on my pelvis. Twisting and turning. Each move makes me want to slap her because i want to pee so badly till she hit my pelvic bone with her stick. I let out an annoying,'OW', she apologized though. Now, i am really curious about the result and hope my GP will sort something out with this pain i am having. So far, painkillers are doing good but it does not really help when there's a movement in my pelvic bone. Or whatever it is.
My phone, it sucks. Its been 2 years and now it has shown signs of disloyalty to me. It has gone of to the wild side, i cannot click on the right characters therefore an SMS from me would look like this," wher ar yoi? ut fer dnnr?" Who the hell types like that. I give up. Worst thing is, my life is all about beating that next level of Candy Crush Saga. I am at level 41 currently, that is if you are interested.
That has been a great conversation starter for me, thank you so much CCS. I could count a few number of people that has been influenced by me. Woohoo.
Also, in all goodness, i have a baby now. In Sims 3, my virtual husband is now a Lieutenant while i am a freelance writer. I have been spending my time in this game because i do not want to face life and "motherlode" my sims all the way. Its crazy, i have got no time to blog or post photos but i am doing all this crap while my internet is out. The life of a working person paying bill.
In a days time, i will be back to work after my 3 days leave...it is going to be the same for me except that school is out. Oh how shameful, life is. I am tired now, mostly sickly green in the face. I know i am not one to complain and moan. Sorry.
Thanks for reading my life in many paragraphs.
Talk to you soon, guise. x